MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Saturday, May 14, 2005~~

today is a v de SUAY day. shld hav gone out as usual n it will b a fine day.

slpt v late last nite abt 3+am. mum barged into my rm n woke me up 9+am. she was lyk naggin tt dad argued wif her cos new printer isn't workin n dad showed her face. (N she has to get it back on me?) she told me to call dad back to settle it. to prevent further commotions, i got up immediately and called dad. He told me to find e invoice for e printer cos he said he copied e service no. on it. altho i was slpy, i looked thru e WHOLE invoice but i dun c ANY service no. so i asked a few more times to make sure. E next tink i noe, he started yelling at me non-stop. Diao. I controlled again n just got e no. frm him (cos he remb? double diaoz) n i called e service line. Spoke to e person, went to check e printer as instructed n stuff n realized tt its faulty. So end up they had to changed a new printer for us n i had to fax e invoice over n stuff. So i did. and cos i abit bu gan yuan, i went thru e whole stack of papers n stuff tt my dad has and i found e no. he said previously on ANOTHER brochure. (so i m sillly HUH? nvm.)

was really v tired so i went back to slp. less than 1/2 hr, mum force me go eat breakkie. i forced myself up cos i dun wan to say more n went to kitchen. she was cooking stuff for her frenz n told me to do tis do tt. Den i find it weird when she ask me to place tt particular ingredient in e pot (tho i was still v blur) so i asked her lyk abt 3x whether i REALLy shld put tt ingredient in, den she jus nodded n i put it in den wan go wash up. A few min later, she realized wad i did and she started screaming n yelling at me too...den start saying mean tinks..n she can yell n link to me not staying hm...getting gd grades but not havin COMMON sense...me being plain stupid n alot of other stuffs..i dunno how she ever managed to but somehow she did..said it v crudely..i was damn blur n mad at e same time alr. I tried explainin but it was no help. Me being me, end up rebutting her a lil' cos i was quite mad tt i had to take all this s*** rite from e MORN till den. Den she finally said "fine. U win ok? U win. Now stop UR NONSENSE n end it. "

FINE. now its MY fault for EVERYTINK tt happened. Sure. i stopped. i went back to my rm, sat on my chair n jus kept quiet. wanted to cool down. As if tinks weren't bad enuff for my morn, my mum came in wif 2 baskets of clothes n told me in a harsh tone tt i shld iron it. Said i haven been at hm so 2day since i m hm i shld contribute...i could haf fairly went out as planned. But becos i noe tt i haven been spending much time at hm wif dem, i tot i shld start today and its really FUN so far i must say.

I jus cont to sit on my chair, den my sis was sick, but she sorta heard me getting all e s*** n she came in...at tt time, i jus started sobbing..haha..cos i cant believe i chose such a day to stay hm..tok abt family bonding to me now man.

Her fren came in e arvo and she started telling dem how silly i was to put tt ingredient in e pot and more...den when dad came back, he wanted me to do stuff for him and acted lyk nothin happened...den in e evening, i went to pick my guitar...played softly and my mum came in, said tinks lyk, "everytime hear u play a little bit, but nv a full song, play 1 now lar...IF U CAN LOR.." Wah...THX ARh MUM.

Really shld jus go sch..den meet sotong go simlim and stuff man...wanted to spend time at hm..i get such treatment...really SUX big time today. But guess wad, i m getting immune to it le. they haf been saying tt its realli hard to comm wif me these days le and i agree...cos most tinks i say sumhw gets distorted or wad when it passes thru their ears..explainations become defends for myself and requests from dem are clearly orders now. and they wan me hm but they screw my entire day when i m hm...noe tt they love me n care abt me n i do too. but e way of expressing it is totally WRONG. BIG CROSS. Haiz, nvm. Its ok. I will still b a dutiful kid to dem no doubt abt it.

Tml's my grandma's b'dae...will not join dem for dinner but will b goin over to her hse from morn cos parents cant make it later in e evening. Hope tml's a better day. gonna touch piano tml. oh..n sims2 is fun. gonez.

*its raining now...pitter-patter...rainings so hard..yet so calm in me."

10:15 PM